Bah.

:p

To pray/worship I need something to pray to. If I don’t know what that something is, I have a target issue. I hope that things on earth get better, that needless suffering ends and life on earth continues for our decedents, etc… You say tomato I say tomat 0.

I know zero to the level that it can never be. Anyone who claims that zero is anything but impossible doesn’t know zero. I can clear my mind, it’s called TV, runners high, etc…

I mock religion because of the reasons for the faith. I have “faith” that something is there, that I’m not schizophrenic, but there isn’t sufficient reason for me to declare what it is. If I did that my belief would be the equivalent of religion. I am Imperadør Hasemörder, ruler of the Unknown Universe.

Why would god be tricksy, Robert? Why not a burning bush?

Because you are not Moses. He has another purpose for you.

Writing about your experiences here may stir the pot. It may be the purpose. So may your sunsets… but I doubt it because it is your portraits that move me.

It does not trouble me that you mock my faith, or anyone else’s “majik”. You are lashing out at the darkness.

If you have prayed, and all you end up with is Zero, then perhaps you should meditate and try to actually achieve zero. I challenge you to actually clear your mind. Bring the rushing torrent to a still water. End all thought within you including the meta thoughts. I bet you don’t know zero. You’re wound too tightly.

Is it state of mind or body?

I don’t think so because I haven’t hallucinated any of it, verifying the events with third parties. I do have an overactive mind. Some of what I have attributed to thit (them/it) surely were just plain old coincidences. I have no means to tell the difference and they know it. I’m sure they use that to their advantage.

Is it tied to location?

No. Though I haven’t ventured outside the United States.

Look for love.

That’s why I’m a plein air painter and an artist. I love life’s ups and value the downs.

Do you love yourself?

Maybe a little too much. The current State of Humanity, on the other hand, could be improved a pinch.

I’ve asked for help, pleaded for answers and have searched for them. Ironically, I’m left with Zero. The last thing I’ve faced is the uncomfortable act of making my knowledge (which is next to zero) public. I’m almost certain they do not want me to be doing so. But this is the only experiment I can think of. Lets see what happens.

There are no answers in God, but I have considered Deism. A god that reveals himself in a way that can’t be distinguished from improbable coincidences is a Tricky God. You know very well that I’ve studied the religions of the world. They’re all bullshit based on majik books. Even the signs that have been sent to me are like the text of holy books. The messages are ambiguous. What the hell is one to do with that? I’ve followed the passive golden rule to the best of my ability and my life is the spirit dance. Why I should dance to a cults crazy tunes never made any sense to me. You bow to Mecca 5 times a day, I’m going to keep painting the sunset.

If it is the Deity I feel honored that it has touched me on earth when so many go through life without even a pat on the back. If the joke is on me and it is the deity, I’m sure I’ll be chillin’ in his den after I’m dead token on the holy pipe.

You are making observations and telling us about them here. This is reporting. You are also reporting bewilderment at the cause or purpose of these happenings.

If you want to do an experiment, you need a hypothesis to establish the context.

It doesn’t need to be a full-blown theory or theology. You need to find a common thread that ties together these experiences, and pull on it. Remove it, double it, replace it with a surrogate. Is it state of mind or body? Is it tied to location?

The other suggestion that I would make is to sit down in a quiet place and pray. Call it meditation if you want, although the goal is not to empty your mind but rather to explore it. Ask for help. Be sincere. Look for love.

Robert, you have heard it said that you must love your neighbor like yourself. Do you love yourself? Talk to you.